Just All of a Sudden

Just this afternoon, as soon as I finished with my work, I went to church to attend mass with my friends. At first, I was hesitant and felt too tired to go to the church but I still went. As soon as we took our seats and waited for some minutes, the ceremony started. I paid attention to the readings and gospel and tried my best not to entertain other thoughts. As the priest shared his homily, something just suddenly struck my mind and it felt like it rushed to my heart: I miss them. I miss my family and I miss my Aunt whom I have lived with during my college years. It was a lonely feeling but I was glad to be reminded. I have realized I was lately too soaked in my own self, planning my life, building my dreams and setting my mind to make them all happen. My mind suddenly whispered to myself, "here you are kring, trying hard to live your life alone, too far from home, proving something to yourself while your family is thinking of you everyday, wondering how you are doing and wishing to care for you yet, they still understand how much you crave for freedom and independence. I just hope you won't forget to keep in touch with them or at least, think about them sometimes"

I know I am not forgetting them. Certainly, they are all included in my plans that's why I am working hard right now because I want to prove to myself that I can make them proud and share to them what I will gain. But I know I can't grow and be productive if I keep on leaning on them. And I am happy now to start on my own and to realize that life isn't easy but I'm glad I still find the courage to move forward. I may take just a step at a time but I know that soon or late, I can run a race and slowly able to pick up my dreams on the way. And if anybody will tell me that life has a monster, I would be honored to meet him. And most importantly, I may keep on reaching my dreams but if they all fail, I am ready to welcome and embrace the life God has made for me.

This is me sharing my most sincere feelings.